Tag: stress

This is Hudson, hiding under a pillow.

I felt the same way today.

The weather shifted last night and I woke up with a migraine.  I sat down to work with a huge mug of coffee, but it wasn’t enough. My migraine meds make me tired and grumpy.  Being grumpy at work is not a good thing.

NJ has started week five of social distancing.  Today the news announced that NY may have had 10,000 deaths.  NJ has 2800.  There seems to be no end to this.  Some articles predict that we are in for 18 months of various degrees of social distancing.  And then there is the looming economic fallout.

There is some good news.  In NJ, a new saliva test will be used, one that is processed more quickly.  People are stepping up and helping those who need it.  Celebrities are donating money and time to lift our spirits. Antibody tests are starting in CA.

But for me, this is becoming more real, real in that this may not be over by Memorial Day, or early summer. We may have restrictions lifted for a while, but only to have them imposed later.  The uncertainty of it all is stressing me out.

I am grateful that we can stay home as a family.

Hopefully a better night sleep will make the world seem a bit brighter tomorrow.

Take care of yourself reader.

Namaste

Day 10.

We are beginning to fray a bit at the edges, I think.  Friends have called to chat about hitting the proverbial wall, strange dreams, or excessive stress.

Today I was coerced into dealing with my car insurance company once my Doc said he wasn’t getting paid because of my deductible.  I spent hours calling my insurance company and the other driver’s insurance company.  And then I googled the what ifs, which are never good. NJ is a “no fault” state, meaning that even though it has been determined that I had no fault in being rear ended, I still may end up paying my deductible and 20% copay.  I felt my nerves unraveling during the last call.  My blood pressure rose, and my tone changed.  I gave up after that.

I know we are all in this Dystopian nightmare called Covid 19 together.

And I guess it will take a while to get everything resolved.

And I can’t control other people’s actions and/or thoughts.

I can only control my CALM: Creative at Alleviating Lousy Moods.

We have friends who are trying to sort out dire tangles in their life.  One is dealing with excessive work responsibilities. Another…the loss of a family member.  A third, has a child with cancer.

None of these situations have stopped because of Covid 19, social distancing, sheltering in place, or curfews.  We just need to figure them out in this new context and hold onto the thought that “this too shall pass”.

Namaste