I promised myself last night that today I would “settle in”. The problem was I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. It started with starting my coffee maker and noticing that there were a few workers on the other side of the neighbors’ ancient, chain-linked fence. One was cutting the green patterned wire and pulling on the posts, the posts where we have iris planted.
Then I saw the materials come. And I got upset. It was clear that our neighbors were putting up a gorgeous, white fence, a six-foot fence.
You see, I have a smaller house on a postage stamp. And at least the green chain link fence made my brain think my yard is bigger than it actually is.
And then there is the message behind a fence. “Keep Out!” “This is ours and not yours.” “Butt out.”
Needless to say, watching the fence go up aggravated every other aggravation. I got mad about work. Frustrated with my tween. Nervous about Covid 19. I couldn’t think straight even after going for a walk.
And then, at the end of the day, our neighbors came out to speak with us. I pasted a smile on my face and took a deep breath. Turns out that they just want a safe place for their toddler to run around. They chuckled and said they should have gotten a door for us. And then they said when the advent of Covid 19 was over, we should come on over.
Boy, I feel stupid.
As I said before, FEAR is a powerful motivator. It colors our thoughts and our emotions. And living in the time of COVID 19 can bring up fears for folks. And it can inflate emotions.
As I did the dishes after dinner, I took another look at the fence. It doesn’t look so bad to me now.
Off to meditate.
Namaste
Meandering Through Midlife 
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